I am going to a concert.  I am leaving at 9am and I probably won’t be home until close to midnight.  The only thing I can think about right now is the food situation.  Everyone is probably going to be shoving their faces but I will not let myself eat.  I am fat and I don’t deserve to eat.  I almost don’t even want to go, I’d rather stay home so I can binge all day by myself.  It is a sad, sad life I live but I am too consumed.  This shit never ends.

It really annoys me how most boys can pretty much devour anything and everything in their path yet stay stick thin.  Fuck that shit.  Why am I a fat girl.